Where do you go when you're feeling down?
Having Caesar's blog has been great for me. It's a place where I can search for humour in some of the awful things that happen. It's also a place where I've found other people who have experienced similar situations. It's a place where I can stick it to those people who make comments like 'those aren't the types of dog you stroke'. It's a place where I can remember how much I love him sometimes and also remember that, no matter how bad things get, they've probably been worse.
Talking about things can take the weight of your shoulders....
When I have a bad day, I'm the type of person who needs to talk about it. In fact, I'm the type of person who will talk about it until I'm blue in the face. I will tell anyone who will listen, and if they'll listen twice, I'll tell them twice. It was lucky then that, eighteen months ago, I stumbled across a website. I can't even remember what I had searched for but I knew straight away that I'd stumbled across something that was going to be important to me.
My first post was about my first concern about Caesar. Did he look like a Staffordshire Bull Terrier cross? This was something I'd been worrying about for some time but did not want to bring up with the rescue centre. Replies poured in, welcoming me and thanking me for joining. Members commented on Caesar's nice colouring and assured me that he looked just like a beautiful Staffy cross. It wasn't long before I was joining in with other discussions. Just little comments "Yes! Caesar does that too!", "Where did you get that?" or simply "Gorgeous picture!" It might be nothing. Small comments. Small talk. However, this became my go-to place whenever something went badly and even when something went really well and I wanted to tell the world. In fact, this was the place that I learnt how many other people out there have similar problems and worse! It's the place where I felt the least alone since having Caesar.
Staffy X what? The first question I asked the internet.
I learnt the importance of talking and sharing and how this could make me see Caesar's actions in a different light. I also learnt that other people have similar problems and sometimes much worse too! I found that I enjoyed sharing Caesar's stories and often they were well received. So I began to write a book, 'Saving Caesar.' The other night, a post asked 'who do you love on the forum?' How could I answer the question? This is how:
Thanks to everyone at Staffies R Us for all of your help, support and encouragement. I love you all!!!!!!
"MUM!!!! Stop talking about me!"